My blood pressure is slowly setting back down to a more normal level this morning and as I can start to breathe normally again, I start to wonder – “am I the only one?”. Holidays are my favorite – I love to decorate for Christmas, I love everything about Easter, and Valentine’s Day is so fun! However, as the holiday dawned this time around, I had to cringe, as I have been doing more and more lately on holidays.
Last night, we arrived home late. We both ran around getting snacks for the kids, tucking them into bed and two minutes later, one of them was up for water, followed by another one who had scratched himself and was “bleeding” (from the sounds of him, it was profusely, but I needed a magnifying glass to detect blood) – he required a kiss and a bandaid and all was well in his world. Another one started coughing which woke up the only one that had actually fallen asleep. Finally, the house was quiet. The dishwasher was humming with the day’s load of dishes, the washing machine was full of clothes being cleaned and I was staring down a mountain of clothes needing to be folded. Brian was out in the garage cutting wood for a renovation project and when he finished up, we sat down with a cup of tea and turned on the tv. It did not dawn on either one of us that tomorrow was a day other than any other normal Tuesday.
Styling and photo by Jorah:

By 2am, the coughing child awoke coughing harder than ever. After a round in the steamy bathroom with the shower running, some Vics and snuggles, she had finally settled down into a quiet sleep again but the clock read 3:30am. We settled back into sleep and at 4:45 our child’s incorrectly set alarm clock went off. She slept through it, I was awake. Sometime in the next hour, I fell asleep but had to fight to wake up when the alarm clock went off at 6:15. Once again, I wished I could imbibe in the morning tradition of caffeine rich coffee because I knew I needed something to get moving! The kids were up, packing up backpacks, getting agendas out to sign, panicking because they couldn’t find their permission slip, packing up their lunch bag and then it came, the sudden realization that today was not just Tuesday, no, it was Valentine’s Day. The first child asked “where is my snack to take for the party?”. Then the second child asked “what about my snack for the party?”. Then the third child said “remember I still need three more Valentine’s for school today”. The blood pressure started it’s upward climb.
At no point last night did it dawn on either one of us that we had to make snacks for school today. The fridge got opened and outside of broccoli and leftovers from two suppers ago, there was nothing that screamed take me for a snack. But ah ha! On the cupboard sat two loaves of Brian’s precious banana loaf. It isn’t often that bananas get a chance to go bad in our house with four fruit loving children in the house, so when they do, Brian’s mouth waters because he loves banana bread. He made up some on Sunday and today watched most of it being carted off for a school snack. Tragedy averted, well at least for my children. Brian thinks this indeed a tragedy.
Styling and photo by Kadin:

We headed off to work/school, making good time so we had extra time to print the extra Valentine’s. For this part, I was at least sort of on the ball. Three weeks ago, I let them pick out their favorite Valentine’s candies. Two weeks ago, they set up little sets and photographed their candies. Then I printed out the photos and they mounted them on cardstock for their Valentine’s. They put them together this past weekend and we came to realization that each of them were short just a few cards so I had to print more. I forgot to do this yesterday so we arrived at work a bit early to get them finished up. However, the printer decided to have an issue, the double stick tape would only stick to itself, the cardstock we had brought got bent all up in the journey to the studio, and there were three very excited children bouncing up and down giving me advice and suggestions for how to make it all work. I finally finished fighting technology, they wrote on their friend’s names and we raced to school.
Then I returned to my studio, made myself a cup of tea wishing it was laced with caffeine, and attempted to get my blood pressured lowered. In the mad rush of this morning, I didn’t even get to wish my Valentine a happy day. Instead, we shared a fly by kiss (you know the ones, where you are running off in one direction, and he in the other and its a quick passing of lips that almost reach but not quite entirely and then the kiss is gone and the moment over before you even realize it happened!), and I heard a Happy Valentine’s Day blow back on the wind.
In my perfect world, those Valentine’s would have been finished last week, a beautifully decorated heart shaped pan of brownies would have been ready for each of my children to take to their party, I would have been cool and collected, my husband would have gotten a card and surprise from me and more than a fly by kiss, I would have looked completely put together when dropping my children off at school and been completely at ease when I kissed them off. Instead, I look like a frantic woman, hair not quite straight, clothes that have a breakfast stain on them as I ate while blow drying my hair, my husband had to watch his prized banana bread be carted off to school, and the last of the Valentine’s were crooked, will likely fall apart by lunch time and my daughters all look like poor orphans in their pretty pink dresses with ragged hair as I failed, in the craze of the morning, to brush their hair. Happy Valentine’s? I think not. Surely, I’m not the only one?
Styling and photo by Kalla:

So, to rectify all that this tired momma failed to pull off today, I want to share with you my Valentine’s gift to my hubby. I could go buy him chocolate, or find some old bananas and bake him a loaf, but instead I will make up for the fly by kiss. To my hubby, my best friend, my teammate in life, and my co-partner in the craze of holiday madness, I say to you this because I don’t always say it when life gets busy: I love you with all of my heart and all of my soul. As cliche as it sounds, you really do complete me. I love that every single day, I only have to turn around to see you by my side, to reach out and know that you are there always for me, whenever I need you. I love sharing in the joys, and I love dividing and conquering the not so happy holidays together, I love when you are overwhelmed that I can make you smile with just a few words, and I love when I am overwhelmed, that your touch on my arm can remind me breathe again. I thank every one of my blessings that I get to share this life with you, for together we are stronger than either one of us by ourselves. I love you the mostest! Happy! Valentine’s Day Bri!
I do also want to add – to those Mom’s at school who have made the most beautiful Valentine’s snack, who have helped their children make fancy candy bags tied with a pretty ribbon, who have not only hair done but makeup on and tidy, matching clothes on, are perfectly on time, have clean, neat children with clean faces and combed hair and who do not look frantic with wide eyes but instead, are smiling serenely at their children and me when I pass by, I want to say thank you. Thank you for giving me something to aspire towards! Someday, I hope to be there too! Until then, well, know that it is my broccoli at the school snack and that I am at least providing your children with a healthy snack! I do get one more chance to get it right for Valentine’s Day. I hadn’t even thought about Rylynn needing Valentine’s but I was informed at dance yesterday that her Valentine’s party is next week. The fun continues – we shall be making more Valentine’s this week!
We created our first window display for our studio, we started it a month ago and spent a frantic lunch yesterday throwing it together and putting it up! It is my heart on a sleeve as a month ago, while waiting for dance class to finish up, I asked each of my girls to put on their favorite song and dance. They each wanted to put on a tutu and then danced while I sat and captured some of it on camera. The idea for the display came from this impromptu session and here are just a few images from it (Kadin is missing from the display for he has no desire to wear a tutu and his dance is intensely private, he doesn’t like to dance in front of us):




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